this morning, instantly thinking...thoughts rushing as if they'd been waiting overnight to get through and out into the world around me. as i went about my day they became dimmer and more far away. I am anxious is my internal world to get to the next place. Where things will finally be desirable. I know this is not the correct way of thinking, as far as keeping a calm mind goes. But, I do wait for the next. Today is Thursday, September 29th 2016...I have about $200 until tomorrow, in which I will have $580, that is....until I pay rent, also tomorrow which will leave me with $205. I leave for New York City in..one paycheck plus three days. Which will bring me up to...approximately $205+$380+$480+$288 (owed) which leaves me with about $1000 to bring with me which makes me feel relieved.
calm comes closer.
hard to define how i feel about things
slacking, but feeling it is necessary for me to get through this.
focus on movement, focus on health and wellbeing and taking care of myself first....but am i?
still putting myself through stressful, predictable situations.
need to surprise myself and challenge myself more. moving closer under the light of the healthy and in-tune. securing myself to my post, my rooted seat made of creativity, inspiration, kindness, honesty, wisdom and comfort.
when feeling the pull away from this seat, allow yourself to acknowledge the pull. give in, but stay strong and intact mentally.
bring that black hat.
i feel the poles guiding my compass. Still yourself and allow yourself to feel the pull. Which way.
